9.30.2005
Now, I just need to configure it for dynamic editing by their own staff. Yeah, first I need to LEARN how to do that. I'm walking myself through the Dreamweaver .jsp demo in hopes it will give me some insight. But this time I will not reset the CRI index page to the demo. I will not.
9.29.2005
9.28.2005
9.25.2005
My current favorite song is Breathe Me by Sia. She is the singer from Zero 7 (Garden State - Waiting Line) another band which I love. The video rocks too, they use a million polaroid pictures to tell the story.
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's noone else to blame
Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, un-fold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up, and breathe me
Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's noone else to blame
Be my friend, hold me
Wrap me up, un-fold me
I am small, and needy
Warm me up, and breathe me
Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found
Yeah, I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
We blessed our season with apples, honey prayers and potluck. A little something I wrote for the event:
A Blessing for the EPIC season
Upcoming evenings will bring a focus on the environment, poverty, and forgiveness among other stuff.
Tennessee
Lord I've really been real stressed, down and out, losin ground...Take me to another place, take me to another land, make me forget all that hurts me, let me understand your plan. Lord it's obvious we got a relationship, talkin to each other every night and day. Although you're superior over me, we talk to each other in a friendship way. Then outta nowhere you tell me to break outta the country and into more country...I ask you lord why you enlightened me, without the enlightment of all my folks. He said cuz I set myself on a quest for truth, and he was there to quench my thirst But I am still thirsty. The lord allowed me to drink some more. He said what I am searchin for are the answers to all which are in front of me. The ultimate truth started to get blurry, for some strange reason it had to be, it was all a dream about Tennessee.
A Blessing for the EPIC season
| God of us, God of everything We come to you as ragged journeyers Welcome God, Have we said that enough? We are the deliquents. The ones who want to shout out in the middle of the sactuary "But what about this?!" The ones who stay up too late on Saturday, The ones who would rather go to brunch on Sunday, The ones who talk about you over cocktails and keg beer God, we don't know anything, but we really like to try and figure it out. So, we ask you to give us a little laser pointer towards the truth. | We do our best to love others, as you first loved us As we serve each other, we serve you Help us remember that its about you, its about love Not us. As we begin our new season bring us chaos, bring us peace bring us truth, bring us song And as your people we all say: We Believe |
Upcoming evenings will bring a focus on the environment, poverty, and forgiveness among other stuff.
Tennessee
Lord I've really been real stressed, down and out, losin ground...Take me to another place, take me to another land, make me forget all that hurts me, let me understand your plan. Lord it's obvious we got a relationship, talkin to each other every night and day. Although you're superior over me, we talk to each other in a friendship way. Then outta nowhere you tell me to break outta the country and into more country...I ask you lord why you enlightened me, without the enlightment of all my folks. He said cuz I set myself on a quest for truth, and he was there to quench my thirst But I am still thirsty. The lord allowed me to drink some more. He said what I am searchin for are the answers to all which are in front of me. The ultimate truth started to get blurry, for some strange reason it had to be, it was all a dream about Tennessee.
9.23.2005
I haven't been the first to finish a math test since back in Algebra. Usually that's bad, it means that I don't know shit, but not in Applied Stats. The test was so easy, I finished after half an hour and my brain isn't even tired!
9.22.2005
I've learned my lesson. I will never leave my car parked in Diamond Point Park after dark, let alone after 10pm. I was working late at the CS lab, as I was leaving I realized, ohmigod my car is trapped in the park.
It scared the living hell out of me to walk behind the stadium next to the lake in the pitch blackness and ohmigod a person is sitting beside the path (please don't hurt me please don't hurt me where's my car where's my car). How am I going to get out - the gates closed!?
Drive around, turn around, call police. Wait. Sorry, thanks. I'll never do that again!
It scared the living hell out of me to walk behind the stadium next to the lake in the pitch blackness and ohmigod a person is sitting beside the path (please don't hurt me please don't hurt me where's my car where's my car). How am I going to get out - the gates closed!?
Drive around, turn around, call police. Wait. Sorry, thanks. I'll never do that again!
9.21.2005
Cripes. If we have to pull together as a country to support victims, why can't part of that support be NOT CUTTING TAXES FOR THE RICH. Fucking illogical.- Nomie
9.20.2005
So student senate is staging a calling campaign to the US Congress to fight the passing of HR 609. This resolution would cut nine billion dollars from financial aid to students. I was interested, so I stopped at their table in the union and eventually made a call to my congressman Collin Peterson. Out of five possible staff people, who answers but Andy Martin!
I did my schpeal about tell congressman not to vote for this, got Andy's opinion as to whether he would or not, and let him know who was behind all of these calls. I chastised him for not attending Camp Collin, and reported that his boss had inspired everyone to go out and work in the 2006 campaign (apparently no one had told him how it went).
Then I mentioned Cap had been stumping for Steve Kelly at the DFL dinner last night and that I had talked to him about getting a job. Of course Andy stepped up to the plate and offered inside info from his connections too. Woo-hoo!
As Cap said - there is no way I can't get a campaign job in Minnesota because most of our races will be targeted and that means money!
I did my schpeal about tell congressman not to vote for this, got Andy's opinion as to whether he would or not, and let him know who was behind all of these calls. I chastised him for not attending Camp Collin, and reported that his boss had inspired everyone to go out and work in the 2006 campaign (apparently no one had told him how it went).
Then I mentioned Cap had been stumping for Steve Kelly at the DFL dinner last night and that I had talked to him about getting a job. Of course Andy stepped up to the plate and offered inside info from his connections too. Woo-hoo!
As Cap said - there is no way I can't get a campaign job in Minnesota because most of our races will be targeted and that means money!
I was talking with my Uncle at my Grandma's birthday and all I could think of was "Are you seriously still racist?" You have televison and computers, you know what the rest of the world looks like. Why can't you understand that everyone wants the same thing: a nice life. Everyone wants success, happiness, love. How can you be Christian/Catholic and not love, let alone tolerate the rest of God's people?
Before you start with your 'big talk' (putting down others to make yourself feel superior) you better know what you are talking about/get your facts straight.
So what's wrong with people who live on the other side of the world? Are they bad simply because of where they were born? Are you better simply because you were born up in Hicktown USA?
You know maybe I should just shut up, cause they would say the same thing about you.
How do I make an impact on my extended family to help them see that people are equal? Help them to not discriminate? Maybe their daughter should have a baby with a minority...a real life tangible experience may be the only way.
Before you start with your 'big talk' (putting down others to make yourself feel superior) you better know what you are talking about/get your facts straight.
So what's wrong with people who live on the other side of the world? Are they bad simply because of where they were born? Are you better simply because you were born up in Hicktown USA?
You know maybe I should just shut up, cause they would say the same thing about you.
How do I make an impact on my extended family to help them see that people are equal? Help them to not discriminate? Maybe their daughter should have a baby with a minority...a real life tangible experience may be the only way.
Arg. Having browser problems. My page looks good in Netscape and IE but not Firefox. Hack here, add a few more pixels there. Then it looks good in Firefox and Netscape, but not IE. And round and round we go. Damn it. When will browsers be standards compliant!? I demand that you all use Firefox. They are the ones who follow the rules.
9.16.2005
I love streaming SHOUTcast radio channel SKY.FM (who cares about the chart order) on my winamp player at work. They play fun new songs, good old song, indie, rap, country, comedy, rock and the rare r&b, luther vandross (at which point I turn the dial) all for free on my surrond sound, subwoofer set up!
For example, they have played these (and other) tunes so far this morning:
Vanessa Carlton - Pretty Baby, Will Ferrel - Afternoon Delight, remix of The Killers - Somebody told me, Jimmy Eat World - Sweetness (their best song ever), a remake of Word Up, and Will Smith's new songs. Plus lots of others that I don't recognize - nice.
For example, they have played these (and other) tunes so far this morning:
Vanessa Carlton - Pretty Baby, Will Ferrel - Afternoon Delight, remix of The Killers - Somebody told me, Jimmy Eat World - Sweetness (their best song ever), a remake of Word Up, and Will Smith's new songs. Plus lots of others that I don't recognize - nice.
It's Friday! It's payday and it automatically was deposited into my savings account! (No having to deal with cashiers crappy hours.) My 8AM class was cancelled, giving me time to stop into Cariboo and see my favorite barrista! I belted it out to my current favorite music on the way to my job that I am actually excited to go to. A boys has been flirting with me all morning via text message. I'm going to pick out new glasses and have lunch with mom at Keg'n'Cork. And I only have one hour-long class today!
Not to mention it is a beautiful, warm, sunny day - and I look hot:)
Not to mention it is a beautiful, warm, sunny day - and I look hot:)
9.13.2005
i dont want a half ass relationship with someone, i dont want to hang out with someone i dont have real feelings for. i want what is real and comes on it's own, without force. I will wait for this feeling again...- Erica
The New York City Democratic Mayoral Primary is today. I called my (super cute italian idealistic democrat) boss today to wish them good luck. I was told I was missed (swoon!). I SO want to be there right now. To be in the thick of the storm, to get people to the polls, to see all of your work come to fruition, to be completely frustrated because it is out of your hands now.
But, no I'm going to Envivonmental Politics class instead.
But, no I'm going to Envivonmental Politics class instead.
9.12.2005
"What I'm hearing which is sort of scary is that they all want to stay in Texas. Everybody is so overwhelmed by the hospitality. And so many of the people in the arena here, you know, were underprivileged anyway so this (chuckle) – this is working very well for them."–Former First Lady Barbara Bush, on the Hurricane flood evacuees in the Houston Astrodome, Sept. 5, 2005
Poli Sci club has an obnoxious redneck who refuses to arise before 1 and will not say boo at meetings or volunteer to do some of the work we're beginning. Why do you want to be in this group? Are you just looking for people to argue with?
Beltrami DFL is a group where MOST who sit on the committee don't do shit! Those who aren't on the exec board do most of the work. What is wrong here? Maybe they're not up to the challenge anymore - but they insist on sitting on the board. Rarr.
Even College Dems is a table where only a few people have opinions about what to do. No input, no offers of help. Although, not as bad as the previous I mentioned. Arg. Why can't we find dedicated people?
Beltrami DFL is a group where MOST who sit on the committee don't do shit! Those who aren't on the exec board do most of the work. What is wrong here? Maybe they're not up to the challenge anymore - but they insist on sitting on the board. Rarr.
Even College Dems is a table where only a few people have opinions about what to do. No input, no offers of help. Although, not as bad as the previous I mentioned. Arg. Why can't we find dedicated people?
9.10.2005
What do you want to be when you grow up?Ha! Exactly.
I have no idea. Someone who doesn't suck, and influences other people. - Lindsi
9.01.2005
Excuse me, but who crowned you king of the CS department? I should be listening to my lecture, but all I can think about is the blog post I want to write about this class. It is computer science compiler. I am the only female. And I am not invited to the boys clique.
When I walked into class today I was insulted three times before the lecture even started and yes the professor was in the room. Now, I understand joking and whatever I can laugh with some of it, but today I literally wanted to cry.
I am a fucking senior! This should not be how I feel in a room of my peers. Am I being too sensitive about this? Should I just take it as a part of life? Or shuld I think that this is somesort of psychological form of asserting power - telling me where my place is? I'm sorry, maybe I'm not as good a student as you, but I don't feel like it is acceptable to be treated like this. I feel like it will escalate if I try and argue or send the same kind of comments back. Any suggestions?
This is the LAST freakin' CS class I have to take, its not starting out well.
P.S. This behavior has been displayed by more than one person who happens to attend a particular jello cult church in town. This shouldn't suprise me.
When I walked into class today I was insulted three times before the lecture even started and yes the professor was in the room. Now, I understand joking and whatever I can laugh with some of it, but today I literally wanted to cry.
I am a fucking senior! This should not be how I feel in a room of my peers. Am I being too sensitive about this? Should I just take it as a part of life? Or shuld I think that this is somesort of psychological form of asserting power - telling me where my place is? I'm sorry, maybe I'm not as good a student as you, but I don't feel like it is acceptable to be treated like this. I feel like it will escalate if I try and argue or send the same kind of comments back. Any suggestions?
This is the LAST freakin' CS class I have to take, its not starting out well.
P.S. This behavior has been displayed by more than one person who happens to attend a particular jello cult church in town. This shouldn't suprise me.
I finally feel like I am accomplishing something at my new job. For a while there it felt like I was swimming in a sea of possibilities with tons of tasks to do and server/programming things to learn. It took me a little while to get my bearings in the old code and new software that they wanted me to use. But now, I'm almost done with the initial content work!
Update: Did I mention they gave me a subwoofer!
Update: Did I mention they gave me a subwoofer!
He walked away and of course then I realized the problems with his reasoning.
A guy stopped by the College Democrats booth at the organization fair today. He just wanted to give us his card so he could get rid of them. He didn't want to sign-up on our list because he was Republican so, Jess asked him his top three reasons for being Republican. He told us they were based on his faith and they were:
Abortion
The death penalty
Guns
Now, from where I see it aren't these a little contradictory? 'I want to save babies, but kill adults and no Democrat would ever hunt - just take my gun away.'
Another of his reasons was because most Republicans are Christian, but HELLO! Any politician has to be Xian to get elected. Haven't you noticed?
As far as I'm concerned (and according to the Society of Biblical Literature) Jesus talked way more about LOVING others and taking care of the "least of these" than he did about abortion, the death penalty and guns (or gays). And Republicans do shitty jobs of taking care of the poor and the sick. Not to mention the environment. I know the Earth is not supposed to be Xian's homes, but they could at least do it for their grandchildren.
(I can proof text it with the best of them)
In particular Matthew 25 says:
He also said: "I don't believe in evolution at all." And you're a college student?
Now my pastor just wrote a letter in the newsletter talking about Evolution being the closest thing to correct and urging the congregation to realize the ORAL tradition that the Bible comes from. These are stories people.
And guess where I'm pretty sure he attends church. That's right Jello Cult Americhristianity.
A guy stopped by the College Democrats booth at the organization fair today. He just wanted to give us his card so he could get rid of them. He didn't want to sign-up on our list because he was Republican so, Jess asked him his top three reasons for being Republican. He told us they were based on his faith and they were:
Abortion
The death penalty
Guns
Now, from where I see it aren't these a little contradictory? 'I want to save babies, but kill adults and no Democrat would ever hunt - just take my gun away.'
Another of his reasons was because most Republicans are Christian, but HELLO! Any politician has to be Xian to get elected. Haven't you noticed?
As far as I'm concerned (and according to the Society of Biblical Literature) Jesus talked way more about LOVING others and taking care of the "least of these" than he did about abortion, the death penalty and guns (or gays). And Republicans do shitty jobs of taking care of the poor and the sick. Not to mention the environment. I know the Earth is not supposed to be Xian's homes, but they could at least do it for their grandchildren.
(I can proof text it with the best of them)
In particular Matthew 25 says:
'42For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.' 44"They also will answer, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?'45"He will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.'
He also said: "I don't believe in evolution at all." And you're a college student?
Now my pastor just wrote a letter in the newsletter talking about Evolution being the closest thing to correct and urging the congregation to realize the ORAL tradition that the Bible comes from. These are stories people.
And guess where I'm pretty sure he attends church. That's right Jello Cult Americhristianity.