12.03.2003
what is the deal? what are we? what do you want? do you know how much i love you? do you feel anything for me? why can't this work? all these things i wanted to talk to you about, but a good time never came (not to mention i'm too wussy to bring it up). now you went away again.
i think i could handle things better if i knew - one way or another.
if i'm ever going to get over you, i need to be mad at you for a little while. i have to go from the extreme of loving and obsessing over you to the extreme of being really mad and bitter at you. hopefully after this comes friendship and normal relations.
my heart doesn't hurt so much anymore. i don't feel like i'm going crazy anymore. i've made a concious decision to stop putting myself through that.
a song playing on the cd player at work stopped me dead in my sweeping duty - it was about a girl who waited too long for nothing.
and you don't read this anymore, so i can post this here and it won't matter.
i think i could handle things better if i knew - one way or another.
if i'm ever going to get over you, i need to be mad at you for a little while. i have to go from the extreme of loving and obsessing over you to the extreme of being really mad and bitter at you. hopefully after this comes friendship and normal relations.
my heart doesn't hurt so much anymore. i don't feel like i'm going crazy anymore. i've made a concious decision to stop putting myself through that.
a song playing on the cd player at work stopped me dead in my sweeping duty - it was about a girl who waited too long for nothing.
and you don't read this anymore, so i can post this here and it won't matter.