9.24.2004
the shit has hit the fan. right now the tension makes me feel like throwing up and going to sit in the corner and cry in the fetal position.
it sux when you go for a really long time on the verge of crying, but you hold it in and try to put on a happy face. And then you've held it in so long that anything will push you over the edge.
i mismanaged my time, my procrastination problem is worse than ever. i've focused on one dimension of my life too much. thus my school work and church have suffered. i should have taken the semester off. i've put off paying for school, partly because i'm annoyed at having to be here. that's extremely selfish. lots of people would love to have my problem.
i feel rather inadequate in class. like the water is rising up around me, but at the same time obligated, as the last female in my class, to finish. or that changing now would be more of a hassel than sticking it out...
it sux when you go for a really long time on the verge of crying, but you hold it in and try to put on a happy face. And then you've held it in so long that anything will push you over the edge.
i mismanaged my time, my procrastination problem is worse than ever. i've focused on one dimension of my life too much. thus my school work and church have suffered. i should have taken the semester off. i've put off paying for school, partly because i'm annoyed at having to be here. that's extremely selfish. lots of people would love to have my problem.
i feel rather inadequate in class. like the water is rising up around me, but at the same time obligated, as the last female in my class, to finish. or that changing now would be more of a hassel than sticking it out...